The fact of the matter is, I've tried writing numerous times since my last update, I just could never finish it off. It wasn't good enough. I'm not even sure if this will be something I want to put out.
The fact of the matter is, I suck at writing now. Looking at some of the excerpts of the drafts that were written the past couple weeks( as well as some from my senior year), I realized that alot of my writing is...well, garbage. Take a look..
"I wake up in the morning.
Turn on my power chord and plug in my iPod, go to check the weather and put on music to accommodate my mood.
Brush my teeth, turn on my laptop, check up on sports and Facebook.
Go to school.
Come back home.
Go on my laptop.
And do nothing noteworthy the rest of the day.
When I'm lucky, I'll throw in..." - 4/7/09
"Have you ever been disappointed?
I know, I know. Stupid and obvious question, right?
But just hear me out.
Today was the first day back to school after a much needed spring break.
If there were a more opportune time for disappointment to strike, it would have struck me when I woke up this morning, and instead of getting my gym bag and going to the gym, I got my backpack and went to school instead...." 4/13/09
"As I sit in my bed listening to the Kid Cudi....,"5/25/10
"It's been a long year..."6/10/10
My writing has seen better days...but I guess it's reminiscent of my summer thus far. The whole time I was up at Pacific for school, I wanted to go home. Now that I'm home, I want to go back to Pacific. This whole first week of summer, I've just kept to myself, and if I did see someone I knew, it was by mere chance. Is it cause I'm lazy? Is it cause I feel like I should be studying?
I really have no idea. I feel like I'm out of the loop at home now. I can't just walk over to someones room at 2 in the morning and cook ramen and eat and say fuck studying down here. Nope.
I feel like I can't even call people up anymore.
This is starting to sound emo. I'm going to tell you right now that I'm not, it's just an awkward situation to be in.
I miss my bro's and fam at pacific.
I miss doing random shit with my friends from high school.
Uninspired is what I am right now.
It's what my laid back personality has led me to this summer...
cheers.
Till next time guys.
Take care.
-Darrel
