Been a while.

I come to you in despair. As the day's go by and I continue to stay in a continuous rut, it becomes more apparent. I do the same thing every single day. I wake up, I go to the gym, I go to class, I study, and then I go to sleep. Now, I've never been one to complain much, nor share my emotions, but this is something I just have to get off my chest. Yes, I have a great future ahead of me, yes, I'm in the best shape of my life, but what for? Not necessarily what for, but moreso who for? Every time I do something good or achieve something, I look to my phone to share with someone, but to no avail. Ever since my last relationship I haven't quite been the same. That empty void never quite filled, and it sucks...terribly. Don't get me wrong, I am so grateful for the friends and family I do have in my life, but they're all moving on with their lives(as they should) and here I am moving on with my life with no one to share it with. There is just that something that a companion provides that no one else can. I'm left yearning for that special someone. All of my best friends have found theirs and their future seems so clear cut and happy. I want that. But alas, I chose the road less traveled and these are the repercussions I have to deal with. I'm going to wake up tomorrow at 6 a.m., go to the gym and work out. Go to class, and then study. When I come home that want to be able to talk on the phone with someone and ask them how their day is going will be greater than the day's prior, but I'll just sleep it off to repeat my routine for the next day. I sound selfish, I know this, but that's what happens when you spend most of the day to yourself. You think about how your life could be, no matter how ridiculous it is, and compare it to how your life is in the present. One day, I'll find her. One day. Til next time. Take care. -Darrel