Cherry.

Life's going fine.
The same melodious beat over and over again.
The same happy tune of optimism beating ever so gently.

As the electric hits, turmoil begins to clash with the happy.
Although it clashes, it creates a harmonious tune.

They work so well to repel each other that they end up working with each other to create such a beautiful tune...


Then it gets quiet...
What was once perfect harmony is put on hold.
Not knowing what's next...the happy tune comes in slightly...easing its' way in...


but in an instant the climax of the song hits.
It brings total disorder, but it's so foreign that it brings nothing but hope that the best is yet to come...

My life in a song.


Ratatat-Cherry.


Till next time..
Take care guys.

-Darrel

Transition States.

I hate it when I first come home for break, or first get back up to school.

For the prior, it's awkward being thrown into Orange County after being isolated from it for a good 4 months. Everyone has their own lives going on and me...I'm just here for a temporary stay. I leave as quick as I enter the OC scene.

For the latter, I know it's the start of a new semester and my sleeping cycles going to get raped by some science that will never apply to my life ever again.

But what both these situations have in common is that, well once you stay in it long enough, you don't want to leave.

You see, it's bittersweet every time I go home and when I get back up to school.

Sure, the first week or so is awkward..but you get into the swing of things. You appreciate everything you have at home, and you start hanging out with the old friends again. It's like high school, except we can all drive and shit seems more intelligent when we speak.

For school its the same thing.

You dread going back, but when you're back up there you know you got your fams up there too. Late night ramen runs, walking everywhere. Doing everything with everyone every single waking moment of the day. It's nice.

We get attached to whatever it is at home and at school and it makes us not want to leave.
Thats why I hate it when people ask me if I like school or home better.
Cause I feel like the answer is wherever I was last.

But anyway...I'm in that first arriving at home state right now.
It's been nice relaxing and being with my family..but it's definitely not as spontaneous as dorm life.
I just found out I probably won't get to see her till summer.
I've been studying microbiology to get ahead.
And I haven't been able to sleep really lately.

Sounds like a nice start to winter break yeah?

But what can you do..

It's that transition state right now...
and if someone were to ask me where I'd want to be right now..I'd tell them that I want to be up at school with my dormmates and bro's and sis'.

I was really only looking forward to 3 things this break.
Being with my fam, seeing the RC kiddos in action, and seeing her.

But it looks like 2/3 will have to do.

Will things get better?
usually, it does.

But only time shall tell.

Till next time.
Take care.
-Darrel

PS. I was gonna try to intertwine OCHEM and this but, no.
I'm too tired to think.