Yellow Lights.

They light the streets on those lonely walks back to the dorm.

They light my desk when I study late at night in the room.

They light when the stoplights about to turn red, and you're contemplating whether or not to stop or go...



That's where I find myself lately...
I tell myself to get over her ever since we had that fallout before spring break.
Definitely not working.

The way I've been dealing with it is by just completely ignoring her, and reverting back to talking to my ex.

But I know that can only last so long, and it's a really bad idea of how to handle things.

Sometimes I wonder if she actually remembers if I exist

I want to talk to her, but I want to see that she cares enough to talk to me too..
Am I asking too much?

Am I overthinking things?


I like her a lot.
I think she does too.... but she keeps saying I'm too young.

Me personally, I've never seen age as a problem, but she does...

Is this time a part good for us?
Or is she just going to move on..


She's not even my type.
She's slowed down with the drinking, but now she's so deep into the rave scene, I don't know what she wants.
She's hanging out with a bunch of different guys, going to Vegas almost every weekend.

It's weird, but I'm just attracted to her.
I trust her with my life, and I wished she felt the same way.

I know I shouldn't be thinking about this with so many midterms coming up, but it's so hard not to.

Should I keep at it? Try talking to her?
Or should I stop trying..and get left behind like I usually do with my "best friends".

Decisions...


stuck between stop and go,
like yellow lights.


till next time.
take care.
-Darrel