All Along.

It's been a while.

Since my last post I have....

1. Fucked up my knee.
2. Decided to stay back another year in undergrad.
3. Got a new addition to my KY family.
4. Gotten fat.
5. Started to enjoy college.

#1 I'm definitely not grateful for, but it made me realize how precious walking is.
#2 I hate organic chemistry, but it led me to #5, so it's a good thing.
#3 I can't even begin to describe how grateful I am for Su. She means the world to me and I seriously could not have asked for a better little.
#4 fuck fat


As for #5....as some of you know, I dropped organic chemistry because my professor and I just did not work out too well. Which led me to stay back another year for undergad before entering pharm school. But what I realized was how tired I was. How I've just been working only to realize that my undergrad was this close to being done already. What I realized was how unhappy I was.

All along.
I've just been studying and not doing much more.

All along...
I've been a pretty lonely guy.


After I came back from tonight's festivities... words throughout the night that were said just keep ringing in the back of my mind.
What am I really doing...
why can't I really be happy?

haha
it sounds real gay but in the end those questions always pop up in my head.

Maybe I just need a girlfriend.
Shit.
Maybe I'm looking for something more than just all this that I've been dealing with since I got here.
Maybe...I'm just overthinking shit again.

Who know's.

My thoughts are really all over the place tonight, and I apologize because it's hard to follow and probably doesn't make any sense..

Anyways...I should stop.


till next time.
take care.

-Darrel